updates rants and ER
all done with my practicum hours!!! L/D was great and i met a lot of great people. i am still considering that floor if i have the opportunity to interview however i have a negative vibe about the current manager. she is very rude and disrespectful towards me. not even getting into it right now. woosah. also it’d be postpartum for at least a year (if i’m there at long) which at first made me be like =/ but then i began to like the flow of it and the people. it’s like med/surg but with babies boobies and vaginas all day
still job hunting and i keep having days where i’m like ‘i dont want to work as an RN maybe i should just take out more loans and dedicate myself full time to this NP program so i can be super knowledgeable’ however this could just be me being lazy…it’s hard to tell because i’m really good at convincing myself. also i keep hearing different views on the role RN experience plays in one becoming an NP. some say the experience you get as an RN will help you more readily identify things as an NP and others say they are such different roles that one is not required for one to be successful in the other. opinions? i’ll listen (just be nice though)
however, for my current job … teching in the ER..i just need motivation to keep going lol. the last day i went i felt like i dealt with so much poop. old people poop is not as seemingly harmless as baby poop! i just felt so frustrated. the odors..
y’all know poop is my pet peeve. even in L/D when pushing led to poop i’d be like
and just seeing all those old (mostly old) sick people sitting in the ER beds for hours and hours and having that smell that all of theER patients seem to have once they’ve been there all day. it made me sad. and i was used to being happy on L/D lol. it made me question all the ER jobs i’ve applied for. but then i went in a couple days later and loved it. felt such appreciation from the people i was working with as well as the patients. the people really really really do make all the difference i think. when a nurse who does med/surg rehab told me she picked that floor not because it was interesting (because it was soooo boring omgshhh) but because of the people i was like HUH?? i need to be busy and entertained! but now i see..oh i see! because i like the L/D floor but the PEOPLE…mercy. and no diversity at all. that’s another topic
ok but yes i’ve been applying for L/D and ER jobs and a few random others. Also some non-nursing jobs just because. i’ve been applying all around and outside of the state. i’ve done some investigating and networking and gotten in touch w/ some nurse recruiters and HR people personally so that’s encouraging
here comes the rant:
i need to be working more because i am sooo low on funds. at the end of the semester i’m always at my lowest financially and it makes me seriously consider desperate alternatives. i won’t list them for fear of being judged lol jk..kinda?
i have to pay to register for the NCLEX, pay FOR the actual license, pay utilities, pay car insurance, pay my on-campus tickets, pay for another bakcground check and drug test for the NP program even though it’s with the same school and i haven’t committed any crimes since attending (or ever for that matter). so i have to prioritize and pick the top one or two and put the rest on hold until i’ve worked a few more shifts. this is what i get for using my off days to enjoy my booskie instead of working..but according to my now-graduated friend- this isn’t something i’ll regret in the long run
so i’ve come to terms w/ the fact that i may get my license later than everyone else..and with the fact that this may put off me getting a job. but on an optimistic note i will have that time to get settled in w/ my new grad program =)
and enjoy more booskie
this one patient yesterday came in after fainting after using the bathroom she hadn’t pooped in the longest and was in so much pain it had her weak. she was barely able to speak and was very scared. so was her husband and more visibly her daughter. they became my spoilers. every shift i tend to spoil and dote on one patient lol well one or more. they were the spoilers. i stood in there for a long while so ic ould hear what the dr said. he wasn’t the nicest. i gave her kid and hubby oodles of popsicles (lol idk) and i just held her hand and stroked her hair for a few minutes til she fell asleep and convinced her to let the ppl do the CT asap so she could get answers. then i had to leave but she was super grateful and said she could feel my warm heart and i’d make a great nurse <3 <3 i hope she’s alright
i’m really not good at watering down my stories i know i should do better lol but all the details seem impt. thank you to the person who warned me about violating HIPAA i am trying to be more mindful
i’ve been trying to pay more attention to the ER nurses and how they operate because i feel like i don’t have a good sense of what the nurses in the ER truly do (i mean i know bits n pieces but not all of it) and i got a full picture when doing my practicum in L/D so i need to really look at both before i go sit and interview for one or the other. i honestly don’t know which i’d prefer. some days it’s L/D but then i get scared that all i’ll know is boobies and vaginas and so i fig ER will help give me some great foundational skills. le’sigh we shall see. i’m thinking high risk L/D could be a good mix. L/D has it’s adrenaline but before all that it’s a big waiting/sitting game. but with high risk i’d still have to be on top of medical/surgical issues more often (so says the nurses who have worked in high risk L/D)
i’m sorry i didn’t update more during my L/D time…every patient was so uniquely and beautifully different i really should’ve posted more. but right now let me get to my ER story and if i recall any L/D stories i’ll post them when i do. or maybe i’ll do one
brief long summary post at some pt..ahh i also have to tell y’all about an amazing midwife i met. gahh so many things to type. that will have to wait too
SN i need to start studying for the NCLEX. my plan is to do practice questions and study the material i get wrong..which could be a lot..