I'm On It

just a ramble

i still haven’t heard back from the awesome L&D job..

..and to be honest it doesn’t bother me (yet) lol

probably because i haven’t gotten a full handle on the school thing and am grateful for the time and freedom to procrastinate still

because if i were working and feeling this way…shoot..everybody AND their uterus would just have to HOLD.UP.

i started browsing through other jobs just out of curiosity and genuinely got excited about some of the variety i saw

i wish i could just rotate through some

although i guess that’d kind of be like nnursing school clinicals (dislikedislikedislike) lol…

so i guess i wish i could rotate through various positions as an already competent nurse

ha! if only..

oh and i wish i didn’t have to take the nclex.

and while i’m at making wishes

my 3rd..

i wish i could just be an actress and midwife already

boom. done.

back to the books..

why do i feel like everyone else is sleeping?? i can’t complain i slept pretty much all day. i think i was meant for the night life.

this could be a long night

i feel i deserve a fb break after every slide

sadly, with 109 slides…i’m going to need a new reward system =/

and there’s still another powerpoint to tackle

whomp

and it doesn’t help that there’s nothing new on fb everytime i check lol

ppl be more entertaining so i can have more fun procrastinating please thankyouuuu

17 Jan 2013
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why do i always feel like everyone’s always ahead of me?!?

like wayyy ahead of me!

sigh…my back hurts

the traditional pre-semester excitement

excited to start my NP/CNM prog

excited to try to use OneNote to its fullest

excited to get organized!

any tips on studying/being organized/managing time?

i think i’ve decided not to work…well at least not if FT is my only option

and I am totally ok with that decision!

excited!

UPDATE: looking at my paycheck and how it will help w/ these upcoming expenses and thinking how much i will miss paychecks and uneven to truly imagine a full time nurse paycheck has me second guessing! ahh!

19 Dec 2012
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apparently my post didn’t post when i originally posted it..

so here it is

So glad my charge nurse is bein so chill right now. Murses (male nurses) rock. i love them. Part of why I like ED. Murses medics n firefighters. Everybody is chill with a sick sense of humor.
Tonight there was food again yay! And I didn’t want to come in but it’s good I did because we got Christmas bonuses. I’m ready to go home though
I think I’m putting in my two weeks notice soon
I got a call from a small hospital asking if i wanted to check out their icu
Now listening to charge nurse talk about how know about research being valid or not isn’t important for nursing practice hmmm…
Oo gotta run respiratory distress comin in! Just when I was gettin bored
Update: this lady may have tb! Crapcrapcrapcrapcrap
Prayin this chest X-ray shows no lesions…
I need to get out the ER lol there’s no time to check everything before you start workin on someone

update: the lady had really bad pulmonary edema. but she was getting better when i was leaving. she became my spoiler that night. i held her hand n got her blankets after helping cath her n catching an EKG. the nurse was like what are u doing what’s wrong w/ that IV i was like lol nothing…im just holding her hand..she was like oh

the ER can be scary! i’d want someone to hold my hand and tell me it’ll be ok

she had so much going on at once. getting stuck simultaneously on 2 diff sides w/ them trying to get an IV (they ended up going for the jugular) and then the foley cath while people are opening the curtain that opens right into the hall and nurses station (she kept askin me to cover her up poor thing) and then that cpap mask. hope she ended up ok.

it reminded me of another lady recently who they had to stick sooo many times and still no IV. they even used an ultrasound machine. the doctor got involved. tried for the jugular multiple times…boob..elbow..hand..everywhere. and the floor didn’t want to receive her w/o an IV..but we sent her anyways. poor woman needed some rest! her veins too. and she was diabetic and hadn’t eaten all day (as most of our patients haven’t..and as most are diabetic) but was NPO. i think i told this story already. she wanted some ice or water and the nurse (after all that poking) said no. but i got her some ice because she had literally just had water to wash her pills down and no1 was opposed to that.

the ER can also be sad. a very sweet later i was working with earlier was asking me about getting her food. i asked why seh was there she said stomach pains. i talked to the nurse she said that it looked like her stomach was full of cancer..possibly her lungs too. she didn’t know yet =/ idk if they told her. if so her mood didn’t change. she was just waiting for her son to call (which he hadn’t) and i couldn’t find his number in her phone because she had numbers saved but no names (lol) so she just waited. and i didn’t get to say bye to her because she went up to a room before i knew it. prayin for her. it’s weird because she didn’t have diabetes which surprised me because i promise abut 85% of the patients i talk to are diabetics. but here she is full of cancer.

overall, though, it was a good shift.

i just pray none of us working w/ that lady (or the lady herself) has TB..

17 Dec 2012
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wee!

so the other night i applied for an ER and L/D position at one of the hospitals in my city that is super nice, pretty, and ranked high in the state. the nurse recruiter called and said no new grad ER positions were open but she would email my resume to the L/D mgr and let her know i did my practicum in L/D and see if she had a spot. it’s full time 7p-7a super excited! the pay is 21.50 (lower than a few others but def higher than a few others! and def higher than my current job lol) and then you get night and wknd differential. because it’s a level 1 trauma hosp i’d assume there’d also be some high risk births so while i may not be getting the acute med/surg exp i felt would be beneficial directly it may come through some L/D scenarios

i’m excited

pray i get it!

oh!!! the best part!! i don’t even need to have taken or received my ATT for the NCLEX! LOOK AT GOD!

so i can start gettin paid and use that money to pay for the nclex

now for the other potential position in a diff city/state for an internship which is a stipend instead of being salaries, i began sending in my final materials today. the pros would be that it is a chance to get some solid acute care foundation but the cons would be the pay, the process of moving (possibly temporarily) and the fact that it’d require more day (not necessarily more hrs) and less pay than the L/D job.idk we will see. putting it all out there and seeing what comes back

on a slightly less happy note i received somewhat of a warning (i guess) from my current job about not signing up for shifts and just coming in when i want (hehe) so now i may have to drive back to pick up a few more shifts. i really want to just stay homeeeeeeeee but of course that leads to no money

pray this L/D job comes through soon! and that it balances with school and my long distance relationship

ok that’s all the updates for now!

oh and i started studying for nclex. by start i mean i did a few questions on my ipod app lol…hey, it’s a start!

16 Dec 2012
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PINNED!

=)

now time to rest relax study for nclex and get ready for this DNP midwifery program whoopwhoopwhoop!

and job hunt some more?

14 Dec 2012
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something OTHER than a rejection! =)

got a call from a nurse internship prog today sounds pretty cool…90 days and instead of actual pay you get a stipend but all the areas are critical care and there’s a class component to it as well.

not sure how that would mix with my graduate courses though

not to mention i’d need to sign up for the NCLEX asap now for sure meaning i’d need to pay for it…eeks

and i just got a ticket today

a bill on top of the others but it def could’ve been higher (240 vs 119)

thank God for His mercy!

oh and the 90 days would be in a city i’ve been wanting to check out lately anyways…a sign?? ;-)

oh yea and pinning is tomorrow =)

dress and accessories picked out! shoes on the other hand….

10 Dec 2012
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who wants a UTI??

one more thing i forgot about my last ER shift

this nurse was putting in a foley cath and wanted me to help hold the patient’s legs open. the patient didn’t seem to be able to communicate and had a jerking tendency at times. the nurse broke sterile field so many times (i mean the catheter was just flopping everywhere and hitting everything. considering the nurse had enough time to be able to take her time..sigh) that i was surely GRATEFUL when she couldn’t get it in and had to start over because had that gone into that woman’s bladder instead of her vagina i just know a UTI would’ve been next and w/ her being older the symptoms are more subtle and a lil diff..like w/ older patients how they don’t always spike a fever..but maybe will show mental status changes instead..and mental status changes on this lady would’ve been hard to detect

i was so disappointed in the nurse!

and i really had a hard time keeping this woman’s legs pried open because i felt like i could’ve been bringing up bad feelings for her. idk maybe i’m word but so many people i know and just in general have been victims of sexual abuse that you really never know what you’re triggering. so the whole time i tried to explain what to expect and what she was feeling (touching..cold … pressure.. etc) because the nurse was just down there doin w/e while me and another nurse (who was male and this wasn’t even okay’d by the patient or family…mind you this was a non-emergent situation so yes there was time to ask!) were holding her legs apart

i just know that i’ve seen people who have a history of sexual abuse have some real reactions for anything like a pelvic exam or anything involving anyone down there period. understandably so. i just can’t imagine. be mindful and sensitive and always considerate folks!

mmk that’s all

10 Dec 2012
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the end is nearrrrrrrrrrrrr!!! (well til the next program begins lol)

not really many here except that i’m just a few days away from being pinned! (wow typing that actually was a little weird once i looked at the date…) i’m really downplaying it because in my head i just want it to be over but i’m sure on the actual day i’ll be ~~kind of~~ super emo